What do I want to be when I grow up? Do I have to decide? Have always loved to sing. Studied piano, jazz, music for years. Taught piano, played in a hotel lounge, but never had the courage to sing. It is a strange thing that now in my 40's, I am finally giving myself permission to do what I love! At this age, you don't care as much what people think, as you don't think that much of yourself anymore anyway in some ways, (reality has checked in!), and in other ways you know who you are and have developed some self esteem, some self respect. In other words, you come in to balance.

Still I think it is brave of me to put this out. I'm no young diva, I'm not going to get signed by a record label, I'm not going on tour with five children, and yet thanks to modern technology I still get to do what I love! They say all you need is 1000 true fans on the Internet to develop your own music career online. That would be fun! I can envision having 1000 people who like my music, allowing me to spend many hours a week in my studio coming up with new songs to share. That's my bliss right now, - being in the studio, singing, writing songs.

I know I also love to write about spirituality and health, the raw diet, green living, and all that stuff that I like to put in Pear Magazine. And all the while, searching for what I really am meant to do, my real calling, that thing which is going to make me on fire with life, that is always coming closer to my conscious mind. I can almost feel it on the edge of my consciousness, flickering in from time to time, a little too fast for me to catch it. But by doing things that we love, or doing things with love, we bring that vision more and more in to focus over the years. That's my belief, anyway.

The words to this song about the rhythms of day and night, are really a part of this search for who I am. I realized that I'm no good in the mornings. I don't want to do anything in the mornings. I want to be awake, but I'm kind of lost for what to do. Whereas by night I'm full of creative ideas and the drive to do them. So in this song I'm manifesting a new feeling about the clarity of the morning, and thinking about how I function, or would like to function, at different times of the day....

My Musical History
My Dad was a child prodigy in Hungary, playing piano at age 5 at the Franz Liszt Academy in Budapest. He escaped the Holocaust at 13 and came to America where he played in Big Bands, became an arranger for many well known artists. He was the house pianist on the Timex Jazz Series so he got to play with all the jazz greats who were guests on the show, including Charlie Parker, John Coltrane, Dizzy Gillespie, and Miles Davis. By the time I came along he was doing music for TV, and for seven years of my childhood he was the Musical Director of Stars on Ice, a weekly TV series. I got to meet a lot of celebrities, listen in on Production Meetings at our house, and run around CFTO studios like I owned it.

I started playing piano at age five, but struggled with reading music, until at age 12 I was inspired to teach myself from the John Thompson First Grade Music Book. I worked through the Conservatory of Music books to grade VII or so, started picking out pop songs by ear, and writing a couple of my own, then started playing in my high school big band, won some awards for solo piano, spent some years going to as many jazz clubs as possible, sang once with my Dad's big band in Canada when his singer was away, sang a few gigs with a quartet he put together for me, played my silver flute on the streets of Amsterdam, then went to a music college Sweden, where my Mom is from, then in Santa Barbara, where I met Storm and married him for his music.

We made a CD called Pale Winter Sun with our duo called Paradox. Met Julie Pitcher who joined us and formed a group called Three Solitary Birds. We are working on our first CD. Started posting my Musical Journals. Have been writing pop songs on guitar for some years although I don't play it very well. Now feeling a call back to my jazz roots, as I think this best suits my voice and my strange way of putting words together.

My Influences
Ella Fitzgerald, Billie Holiday, Sarah Vaughan, Astrud Gilberto, Djavan, Joni Mitchell, Sarah MClaughlin, Flora Purim, Nat King Cole, Sade, Holly Cole, Shania Twain, Sting, James Taylor, Allanis Morisette, Jason Mraz, Sara Bareilles, Nina Simone, Diana Krall, Chet Baker, Stevie Wonder, Coldplay, The Beach Boys, Kate Bush, Eric Satie, Debussey, McCoy Tyner, Gil Evans, Weather Report, Salif Kieta, Bobby McFerrin, Chaka Khan, Tuck & Patti, Take 6, The Singers Unlimited, Will Ackerman....

My Musical Future
Lately I've been inspired by a couple of my close friends who have been enjoying my recent compositions. One of them told me I have a soothing voice. Well, as part of my calling seems to be to share raw food healing and inspiration, this "soothing" thing fits right in with my current line of work.

I am a big believer in the power of music to change our vibration, our health, our mood, our lives, and our world! My goal is to "help uplift the vibration of the planet", and I think that music may be the most powerful tool - and right at my fingertips - to cultivate to that end.

I left jazz because I felt the vibration was too depressed. I've been flirting with upbeat pop music, world music, new age and folk styles which are often happier energies. And now as I am coming full circle back to my first musical love - jazz - I'm hoping to combine all these influences in my music, with peaceful, soothing, healing, relaxing, and inspiring sounds.

Thank you for listening! (Or if you haven't yet, you can click on the video in the right hand column to hear my new song, "Circles of Grace". If that doesn't work for you, check it out on my youtube channel. Comments are appreciated!)